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I AM STOKED. I went to the doctor to discuss my blood test results. Not only am I fine, but he is not at all concern over my glucose level AND I lost 9 pounds since my last visit.

I’m holding myself accountable today for weeks of going back and forth. I’ve noted this before in my blogs, but ever since I got back from California in October I’ve been a dud. I didn’t want to exercise. That for me led to food slips. I made room for excuses. All in all, just not in a good place. To give myself a little credit I did fight against those bad habits. I would get right back on track by noting my food and going to the gym, but I couldn’t get into a rhythm. You add in the back and forth cycle and the holidays and I noticed I was gradually gaining some weight back. S-C-A-R-E-Y

When I left for Cali I weighed 208. It was right after a food cleanse so I’m wondering now if some of that was water weight. Regardless, my weight started fluctuating. 208-211. Then 211-215. 215-220. You get the idea. I realized recently that I was putting too much emphasis on the scale. I let myself be discouraged by a number. I made such a thing of the number that I was chasing 208 and every time I weighed in and it wasn’t 208 I’d just want to eat because I felt like I gained anyway.

So what changed?

I forgot about the number. I forgot about how many times I was going to the gym before my trip. I forgot about how well I was eating before. I did what I recommend anybody does when they start this journey. I took my own advice, sat down and reevaluated what I want.

I want to weigh 175 pounds and meet my 100 pound overall goal. Then once I reach that I’m going to reevaluate again because it doesn’t end at 175 for me. Luckily this happened right around the New Year. So I made a list of 2013 goals. I like lists and I am a visual person so this helped a lot with gaining a new perspective and focus. I was no longer chasing “what was” and I refocused on the present.

Presently I weigh 214.5 pounds. I’m ok with that because I have a new determination and focus. I’m going to meet 175 because I’m refocused to work my butt off until I do.

I needed to change. I was so worried about getting into my old routine it never occurred to me to begin a new one and challenge myself. So the changes I’ve incorporated include:


  • I’m jogging/walking with my sister.
  • I’m doing walk/run events.
  • I’m refocusing on strength training.
  • I’m back in the gym.
  • I work out 6 days a week and I give myself 1 day of rest. Those 6 days are either outside or in the gym.
  • I add an extra workout in the evenings with weights in my living room.
  • I’m changing my fitness mentality. It isn’t just about getting a workout. It’s about getting the best workout I can do in. My sister says not to plan on working harder the next time and taking it easy today because we don’t know what tomorrow will bring. So I’m now putting forth everything I can into my workouts and I’m not going to take it easy on myself. I know I’m capable of more.


  • I’m paying closer attention to the nutrients I’m feeding my body. Sugars, fats, sodium, proteins, and carbs. I was eating way too many carbs. I thought I was eating right, but with eating too much fruit I was going way over the recommended amount for carbs and sugar.
  • I’m limiting fruit to twice a day and I’m adding a protein with each serving.
  • No slipping for sweets. By limiting the carbs and sugars I find I don’t crave sweets like I used to. The poptarts, cookies, cakes, etc. I would prefer yogurt with berries and that is mind blowing because I never used to care for yogurt. I think cutting the crap out of my diet has left me a cleaner taste for healthier foods. The processed sugar just doesn’t taste worth it now.
  • I’m staying within 1400-1550 calories a day.
  • Eating foods with more fiber
  • Overall, I’m eating very CLEAN. Fruits, veggies, protein, nuts, and food similar to what I put in my blog yesterday.

I feel my visit with the doctor today is validation for the changes I’ve made over the last few weeks. I really needed this because I hit a wall. I think the wall was a result of the inconsistency with exercise and the extra food allowances I was making. So it wasn’t so much a wall as it was me blocking myself from my own goal. Now that I’m back on my plan and I’m solid, I didn’t even need the number on the scale to know that I was losing. I just feel better. You are what you eat, right?

On an ending note, I “like” a page on Facebook called “Weight Watchers Points Plus Recipes.” I’m going to share one of her statuses. It is very motivating. 🙂

“If you were feeling sick, you wouldn’t wait for random people to bring you medication, right? If you aren’t feeling motivated, don’t wish for it. Don’t wait for something random to strike because it won’t! Get out there, watch inspirational You Tube videos, read weight loss success stories, look through our photo album of successful members, sit down and make a list of why you WANT this, make an inspirational wall to help remind you of why you’re doing this, etc… But most importantly, choose something that you know you can do better this week and then do it! Sometimes the best way to get motivation is to have a little success, whether it’s by meeting your water requirements (hey, you have to start somewhere) or by forcing yourself to track for a full week. YOU are the only one who can do this so stop relying on outside sources for your motivation! Look within and you might be surprised at what you find! – Mary”